Saturday, June 29, 2013

It's the little things..,,,

There is a picture of a father and son, dressed as super heroes, walking through a store, that I repinned on Pinterest. Then I wrote a few words about how awesome I think this is. I was raised by my father, and have a different take on life and the way I interact with my kids. My father was always completely honest and direct with my brothers and I. He didn't sugarcoat things, but considering what we had seen from our mom, before they divorced, her being schizophrenic, and chemically enhanced most of the time,was the best thing, we wouldnt have been as close if he wasnt the way he was. He was one of the few REAL people that i have known, just like the song, I did it my way! that was my Dad. He never let anyone change or interfere, with the way he loved us, he taught me about the real world,that life is never fair and when you love your kids, you listen to them, you are loyal and you are their shelter from the storm,but you teach them how to survive and thrive. My Dad was no saint by any means, but when i look back on my life, and think of him, my heart still hurts knowing that this man has left this earth. He was one of the best friends i ever had, he loved me unconditionally, and right this moment, as i think of him, tears are in my eyes because i miss him so deeply. He was always my biggest fan and his easy going way,kind heart, along with his love, i have given to my kids. I have to say,now that my kids are grown, they are two of the best,loyal, loving and kind hearted people I know,and as I light up when my Dad walked in a room, they, and I do the same. We talk all the time, we listen to each other.To me, they are sun and moon,and they love me right back.Theynare the first to let anyone in their lives know that, we are close, and that will never change because, just like my dad, I have always been their home & heart, their biggest fan , their truth, and their strength. I used to tell my Dad that I prayed my kids loved me as much as I loved him, and they are proof that prayers are answered. As the Maya Angelou poem says; People will forget what you said, they will forget what you did , but they will never forget how they made you feel. That is a real truth, remember that when dealing with the people you care about. Make things better than they were when you leave.Life  throws you around, kicks you when your down, and gives you tests when you have no eraser, and laughs... That's when you need love the most, that's when you need the baseball bat wielding ,smiling and determined love that, hands you a bat, shows you how to hold it, and a brand new eraser, as they tell you, as long as I breathe, I'll have your back ,your never alone, and right, wrong or in between, you've got my love & you've got me,always!! Queenersmom 
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